poem i wrote after crying in whole foods

life without you is worse than i thought it'd be
i have no one to text after two gin and tonics 
or call when i need to hear myself 
make a bitter man laugh

when i dig through my purse in public 
i think of you the most
watching me get paper cuts from coupons 
would have made you rock hard 

all we have in common anymore 
is that we both miss the old me 
frazzled and happy, tripping over bricks
i'm at my best when i have no direction

we said goodbye under fluorescent light
at least that makes it all easier to forget
you taught me that some good things
are meant to stay below street lamps

with you gone i wear lavender blazers
i have health insurance and every flavor of ollipop soda
successful and sexless is the brand
my friends say i'm killing it.